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Jul. 4th, 2005 11:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
awesome_lillyHer discussion with Kitty still fresh in her mind, Lilly resolves to talk to Pete. A serious, grown-up talk about what exactly they're doing here.
It may not be very serious and grown-up to avoid bringing it up every time she sees him for the next couple days, but, well, she is onlysixteen eighteen.
Even Lilly can't put this off forever, though, and she goes to the stables one afternoon that she knows Pete'll be there. And he is there, standing outside Duncan's stall. She smiles as she comes up to him.
"What up, sai?"
It may not be very serious and grown-up to avoid bringing it up every time she sees him for the next couple days, but, well, she is only
Even Lilly can't put this off forever, though, and she goes to the stables one afternoon that she knows Pete'll be there. And he is there, standing outside Duncan's stall. She smiles as she comes up to him.
"What up, sai?"
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Date: 2005-07-05 07:04 am (UTC)He loves her.
At least, he thinks he loves her, although he has nothing to measure it against.
But he knows she doesn't feel the same way, and has realised, painful though it was to admit, that their quasi-relationship is just bad for both of them.
And now, resolved to talk to her about it, he's actually truly pleased to see her for the first time in days.
"Lilly! How are you?"
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Date: 2005-07-05 07:09 am (UTC)This is also something she wanted to tell him. She's not avoiding anything. Shut up, she is not.
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Date: 2005-07-05 07:17 am (UTC)"...pardon?"
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Date: 2005-07-05 07:21 am (UTC)"He gave me the freedom of the Dreaming, Peter. I can go there whenever I want, I can travel through there to anywhere I can imagine. It's... I don't ever have to worry about being stuck there ever again."
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Date: 2005-07-05 06:36 pm (UTC)He starts to smile. "That's fantastic."
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Date: 2005-07-05 06:37 pm (UTC)"Isn't it? Best news I've gotten in a really, really long time. I'm trying to figure out a way to thank him, but what do you get the Endless who has everything?"
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Date: 2005-07-05 06:44 pm (UTC)"I really have no idea," he finally decides, sounding cheerful about it.
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Date: 2005-07-05 06:47 pm (UTC)Pause.
"So what's been up with you?"
She's still not avoiding, she's just looking for a segue.
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Date: 2005-07-05 07:41 pm (UTC)Nothing out of the ordinary, then.
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Date: 2005-07-06 01:39 am (UTC)"That's easy, I'll just throw a swing party."
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Date: 2005-07-06 02:11 am (UTC)He grins.
"Prove to the bar in general that I'm not completely dull, eh?"
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Date: 2005-07-06 02:13 am (UTC)"You're not dull, Pete. Stop saying that."
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Date: 2005-07-06 02:44 am (UTC)"Actually, that's what I meant, this time. I thought throwing you across a dance floor might prove to any Doubting Thomases my lack of dullness."
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Date: 2005-07-06 03:32 am (UTC)Lilly smiles up at him.
"It'll probably work, but you have to promise to catch me before I'm going along with this scheme."
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Date: 2005-07-06 03:40 am (UTC)"I," he says, even as a corner of his brain screams at him to stop, "will always catch you."
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Date: 2005-07-06 03:45 am (UTC)"Good to know, Pete."
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Date: 2005-07-06 04:24 am (UTC)"Lilly, we really shouldn't..."
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Date: 2005-07-06 04:27 am (UTC)Lilly stops, blinks.
"Okay, so I'm guessing we've both been spending some time thinking then?"
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Date: 2005-07-06 04:54 am (UTC)"So it would seem. And come to similar conclusions, it would appear."
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Date: 2005-07-06 04:56 am (UTC)"The whole 'this is not a good idea' conclusion? Yeah, I think we have."
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Date: 2005-07-06 05:08 am (UTC)"It really isn't, you know. Much as I wish it were."
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Date: 2005-07-06 05:12 am (UTC)Lilly bites her lip, glances down.
"I mean, I do like you, just not enough for this to be a good idea. I just... I don't want to be the girl who breaks your heart, Pete."
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Date: 2005-07-11 04:24 am (UTC)It's quick, and bitter, and he looks like he'd like to take it back before he's even done saying it.
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Date: 2005-07-11 04:27 am (UTC)"I'm sorry you feel that way," she says stiffly, and turns around to leave the stables.
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Date: 2005-07-11 04:49 am (UTC)He rubs tiredly at his forehead.
"I can't change the way I feel. But your friendship is far more important to me than this... whatever it is we've been doing the last few days."
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Date: 2005-07-11 04:56 am (UTC)"Same here, Pete. But I just... I don't exactly know how to be around you right now. And I don't want to make things worse for you, but I don't know how to do that without things being weird, so yeah."
She shrugs, not meeting his eyes.
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Date: 2005-07-11 05:04 am (UTC)"You do whatever you need to do, Lilly. I'll be alright."
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Date: 2005-07-11 05:30 am (UTC)"I'm sorry, Pete. I'm just... not that girl."
Not the one he thinks she is, Lilly means.
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Date: 2005-07-11 05:41 am (UTC)His voice is tight with some difficult-to-place emotion.
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Date: 2005-07-11 05:59 am (UTC)"Okay," she says quietly, and turns to go again.
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Date: 2005-07-11 06:03 am (UTC)She doesn't look back.